I have got a FUCKED UP Family.....When everything just seems so weak and frail...that is really like the last thing i want to know.............
It hurts a lot when you know that you did not do really well for common tests...... It hurts even more when you know that the guy that you have the hots for is overseas..... It makes me want to die when i know that i am going to become an ultimate victim of pressure and it husts even more when you know that your family isnt behind you in anything that you do...... A part of me just went dead when that hit me really hurt.......
No words of concern from my parents..... No open communication channels from my family..... Even a simple request of drying my training gear would kill them.......... Why ??? WHY is it like that????? I am really envious of people who get along well with their parents and those who really look like they got all the love that they need from their family......... No one to turn to when i am so stressed out of my trainings and school work andall of a sudden i just felt so lonely and so sad living in this world.... I really long for a hug from someone out there....or a pat on the shoulder to tell me that "it's okay, you are going to be just find"...... none at all....... NONE
It doesnt help when school and trainings is killng me..... I am dying from fatigue and slowly withering under pressure.............. I may seem jovial and strong on the outside but i am actually dying inside...... It is really agonising to know that you have no one to lean on or depend on........... sometimes....i just think that i would be better off if i die..............
She is an emotional individual.
Has a blue heart, strong minded and focused.
often called a fashion addict, to her, dressing up is a form of self respect.
inspired by the environment aound her, she experiences spontaneous creative outburst at times.
work is very important to her and she earns her own keep.
she may seem like the happiest child in the world but she is hurting inside.
can be found in the nitty gritty parts of Singapore and flea markets.
she is totally random.
the movers
the audrey hepburn kind of style touched her.
vivienne westwood and punk rock culture moves her.
music hits her.
Brit rock embrace her.
Red hot chilli peppers loves her.
photography hugs her.
shopping motivates her.
vintage inspires her.
shoes makes her.
forensic science intrigues her.
Travelling calls for her.
Contemporary architecture stole her.
REAding teaches her.
andy warhol fucks her.
Sports makes her.
Marc jacobs corrects her
Movies keeps her.
TV shows honours her.
Passerbys
anthony kedis.
Kurt kobain.
rachel blison.
mischa barton.
tom ford.
