Thursday, August 04, 2005
feeling:like a freaksong in my head:Chariot-gavin degrawMood:Economist mood.....C+ I+ G+ X- M=AD... oh yah i am a big fanhmmmzzz.....there is something really sexy about gavin degraw.... i cant make out what it is....probably because of his trucker cap....his sense of laziness... his torn and tattered jeans or his messy hair....yup i had a thing for guys with messy hair....... really orgasmic i must say.....YUMMYhonestly....i have never worked so hard in my studies before..... yes.... i still remember vividly how i sail through my primary and secondary school slacking most of the time....think i was being classified as some wandering soul roaming around without an aim or lacking in a vision by some teachers...... Here i am being extremely focused and working my ass off for an aim..... my aim in fact... quite a turn around i must say..... guess i just pretty much realised that i do not want to fuck up my life like i did last time for my Os..... how weird..... i do not want to be an accidental student AGAIN in some educational institute trying to figure out life and say "if only"......like the hanson song..... "if only i had the guts to feel this way"... well i am trying to have that "guts" now so that i do not screw up this time round......It's amazing how i managed to finish my gp timed assignment and my econs essay.....yup.... i shocked myself sometimes.....i guess sometimes everyone just needs that little push and you will go further........I liked the GP lecture on arts yesterday... particulary i am very interested in the subject and also it is very interesting to find out how people perceive things.........very stimulating....lamp posts.....Street lights.....Roads....Cars.....Trains....pedestrains.....morning rush....signs of over-urbanisation.....Sigh.... it's a sad and depressing place.....Well i have to head back to my work now.......yes at this time..... it's okay... it's only for 3 months....
tillthen
