Thursday, October 12, 2006
when reality strikes back.....
am i disillusionate ???
am i real??
why aint i feeling a thing when i know that my mom is dying ???
why is the world so unfair ??
i just embark on something big and new and now they want to take something away from me...
i didnt make a pact with the devil...
neither did i do something really bad....
then why me ??
because i am vulnerable ??
because i may seem too strong ??
because i am too independent ??
then why ??
till today no one really could provide me with an answer....
and honestly...
i dont wish to know....
nor do i wish to seek for it....
cause the truth would be invalid....
thats to me in a sense.....
i am tying to smile....
thats smiling energy is waning off.....
i need time....
god....
i really do.....
it doesnt help when she already discussed about her funeral proceedings...
it doesnt help that when she said that her assets are going to be spilt equally amongst the three of us......
i just want to run away...
as far as i could....
and scream and cry as loud as i can........
i need to release my frustations and anger......
and ask why ?
tillthen
